Okay, okay! I'll admit it! I have a newly born fascination with big boobs!As a gay man, I find this disturbing, and have wondered more than once how to rid myself of this unhealthy obsession. I've considered electro-convulsive therapy, hormone pills, aversive conditioning...but I don't have a the guts to even admit it to someone in person, let alone to ask for help.
The worst part is, I seem to be alone in this torment. I've looked all over the 'Net, and I can't seem to find any other gay men who are into tits the way I am now. It's rather humiliating, really. There are all sorts of self-help groups for straight guys who find themselves attracted to cock...so why not throw me a bone? Excuse the pun.
Like most of the bizarre goings-on in my life, I can't really narrow down its genesis. I can only recall two distinct periods in my life: 1) The Before Time, when I thought boobs were the most disgusting thing in the world right after baby poop; and 2) The Now Time, when I find myself searching for the perfect pair in Google Images. What the hell happened?
The strangest thing about it is that I'm not the least bit attracted to anything else about women. I don't like the way they look, the way they dress, the way they talk, the shape of their bodies...and CERTAINLY not the nether regions (you know...down there?). If I could just find a pair of living titties that could stay alive on their own, without the rest of the woman, it'd be perfect.
As I ponder the subject, I think I may know how this all came about. See, I have an unhealthy fascination/obsession with straight guys. I love everything about 'em. The way they look, the way they talk, the way they carry themselves, the way they stare at me as if they're questioning their own sexuality and wonder silently if I'm the one who can make them finally have the perfect orgasm (okay, that last part is a private assumption of mine, but it could happen.). 
As a result of this, I spend a lot of my free time searching the Internet for straight porn so I can see some of these guys in action. I love finding images an
d videos of straight porn stars like Peter North, Lee Stone, Alex Sanders, Nacho Vidal, Rocco Siffredi, Randy West, and others like them. When I see them in action, they're always with a girl, and usually spend a lot of time around the old Joy Melons, if ya know'em sayin'. My theory is that, since I've only ever been exposed to images of boobs within the realm of straight porn, my lust for these guys has sorta "rubbed off" onto the boobs (arguably the least offensive part of the female anatomy to a gay man).
As a result of this, I spend a lot of my free time searching the Internet for straight porn so I can see some of these guys in action. I love finding images an
d videos of straight porn stars like Peter North, Lee Stone, Alex Sanders, Nacho Vidal, Rocco Siffredi, Randy West, and others like them. When I see them in action, they're always with a girl, and usually spend a lot of time around the old Joy Melons, if ya know'em sayin'. My theory is that, since I've only ever been exposed to images of boobs within the realm of straight porn, my lust for these guys has sorta "rubbed off" onto the boobs (arguably the least offensive part of the female anatomy to a gay man).Added to that is the fact that I LOVE man tits. If a man doesn't have big pecs, I'm usually not as turned on by him as I would be otherwise. It wasn't always like that for me. In my early years of sexual-awareness, I was just into hairy chests. If a guy had a hairy chest, that was enough for me to get off. Then, I started getting into hairy and MUSCULAR chests. Even better! After a while, I became obsessed with HUGE COCKS, and haven't lost that desire since then (if a guy doesn't have a big cock, I won't give him a second glance in real life).
Enter the Boyfriend. My first real boyfriend was Gary; an older, hairy chested bodybuilder type with really big nipples. Technically, he had really big areolas,
but no one seems to know what those are, so I usually say "nipples." The nipple is actually the little piece in the middle that sticks out (and I hate it when those are really long...especially those artificial ones some of the fags have created these days, usually with saline injections). The areola is the base of that wonderful patch of supersmooth, sometimes sensitive, beautiful skin on a man's pec. Gary's were much bigger than usual; about the size of a fifty-cent piece! His weren't sensitive, but he did like me to suck on them because it was part of the Son role I'd silently play to his Daddy role. Shining in the middle of all that black chest fur, just atop those amazingly powerful and well defined pecs, they were just glorious to behold.
but no one seems to know what those are, so I usually say "nipples." The nipple is actually the little piece in the middle that sticks out (and I hate it when those are really long...especially those artificial ones some of the fags have created these days, usually with saline injections). The areola is the base of that wonderful patch of supersmooth, sometimes sensitive, beautiful skin on a man's pec. Gary's were much bigger than usual; about the size of a fifty-cent piece! His weren't sensitive, but he did like me to suck on them because it was part of the Son role I'd silently play to his Daddy role. Shining in the middle of all that black chest fur, just atop those amazingly powerful and well defined pecs, they were just glorious to behold.So, when you combine the Daddy Pecs Nipple Obsession with the Straight Man Boob-play Conditioning, I guess you end up with a fag who gets turned on by women's boobs (some of them, anyway).
Even still, I think I'll just admire them from afar. I don't think I'd ever be able to get it up with a woman in the room.
8 comments:
oh my god, dude! you are so funny! i feel for ya, being in that pickle. i'm a str8 guy, so big boobs are the bomb, but if your gay it must be pretty confusing. lol
So, what's wrong with being into both? I'm a woman, but I can see the beauty in breasts the same as a man can. I think sexuality is just something that blossoms, changes, grows, etc. It doesn't need to be static. I know mine isn't.
Great blog, though. I look forward to reading more entries.
They sell fake boobs that feel very real, ya know. Get a pair of those and fuck em. If you like that, let me know and I'll hook you up with my ex gf. Hers are huge, and she'll let you fuck them.
Hi Sheldon, I think this blog is a great idea. It's fun, entertaining and good!
I am gay myself and I also have a "little" fascination for big boobs. Sometimes they even turn me on!!!
But I have a bigger fascination for big-chested MEN, who have HUGE PECS!
Personnally I don't like hair, anywhere on the body...yuk!
Anwyays, thanks for that nice blog.
I'd love to know more about your relationship with your partner's straight brother...
Man I' with you. I'm a fag but love DD's or bigger. Have only gotten into tits in the last few years. You're not alone.
Dude, you are not alone. As a gay man, I also love big boobs(also butts). Bit like you, I also find men with big chest really attractive. Probably due to my obessesion, I started find women with big boobs erotic(it's even bigger than men's), I do want to shave my face into these things.
Butts do the similar thing to me (cuz I also love a nice big ass on a guy) When I see big things, always the word "sex" comes into my mind, always a big turn on, big muscle(especially chest), big crotch, big ass. However, I am not into vagina, no matter its size
Haha, I guess you can always find someone who has similar taste. Also I watch straight porn,cuz I love straight guys. Straightness is just something hot and inresistable. Even when I watch some "gay for pay" type of porn, I always try to capture every facial expression of the straight actor, and make judgement whether they are straight or not. If they behave really straight, it will get me really excited.
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